sometimes I feel so behind in life 🤷‍♀️😳

Well, we all know the phrase that comparison is the theft of joy. But once in a while we all fall into the comparison trap, right?

On days when struggling with bad moods, self-doubt, financial struggles...then it's pretty easy to fall into that damn comparison trap.

Thinking that everyone else around us is having the easier or more fun life. That no one is struggling as. much as we do and so on...

Truth is those are just subjective feelings. It is never the truth. Also, we only see how somebody's life looks from the outside, we have absolutely no idea what's going on in the inner life of that person. And that is a good thing since it's none of our business anyways.

For some reason, today is one of those days that I have been struggling with the comparison gap. I just heard how other people have meetings with productive outcomes. In my mind I see how others get lots of newsletter subscribers while I feel my list is growing super super slowly.

And when I ask myself where this sort of negative mindset stems from today, I can say that it is not even because something went terribly wrong. No, not at all. But I had just spent 2 weeks of being sick at home and it's needless to say that this is not really a great mood-booster.

Yes I feel physically better now but it seems my mood and mindset still have to catch up.

Because let's face it, I felt like those two weeks of what I have perceived of being unproductive felt like they threw me way behind to where I wanted to be at this stage of January.

But I did something I don't do normally. I made use of those two weeks to really feel my feelings instead of just thinking through them and rationalizing them. And yes, that hits on another level. It goes very deep and it can be quite painful. That's what feeling those feelings usually does.

But it's essential in order to let parts of an old identity behind that is no longer needed because it does no longer protect the person it needed to protect. Because that person is gone. A new identity has been born. So those two weeks felt like a snake shedding skin - to bring it to a very metaphorical level.

Or a butterly carefully leaving the cocoon of former protection!

So, I'm not behind in life.

I only entered a new era.

My era.

The era that's transforming my life into my wildest dreams.

xo - Phyllis

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